♥ Friday, September 29, 2006 ♥
11:12:00 PM
cant believe it right ?
but it happened .
yeah . something bad happened .
let's not mentioned it ..
jus came back wif jie and mei from kfc ..
hhahas .
my fave =)
ate 2 sets of 3 piece chicken meal .
so had a total of 6 pieces of chicken, 1 whipped potato, 2 colesaw, one cheese fries and 2 pepsi .
woo hoo ~
then i keep seeing marissa ..
at bugis and at tamp .
super qiao right ?
i miss her la .
and ken and melissa and evon and many more .
=(
and lynette says she rmbs me !!!!!
hahahhahahas !
actually is jus a random entry .
will post pics in the next entry ?
hahahhas =)
♥ Wednesday, September 27, 2006 ♥
11:05:00 AM
it's super shuang la .
so all o lvl students , go have a break and then prepare for a battle for o's
with regards to the previous post ..
i decided i shall NOT b complain anymore
complaining on life doesnt makes it any better
even though our life gets better , we humans wil still not bo contented
so complaining and moaning over stuffs doesnt work out !
- i believed tt tt bus stop is cursed .
♥ Monday, September 25, 2006 ♥
7:08:00 PM
let me tell u , it wasnt easy to get back to ur feet if u had fell down .. especially when u fell into the abyss of darkness . ur life suddenly grew gloomy . it was as if u are stuck inside ur own dreams and no one could wake u up . or was it ur own psychological thinkings that refused to wake up and face wif the reality ? i dun quite noe .
went wif chua to ps to get present for mum and ivan . then we took 36 back to airport to study physics . the journey was a tough one man . there was these milk stain smell which smelled horribily . then we were super full la . and i nearly vomitted in the bus .
these journey brought back many memories actually . i rmb abt tt day when we took bus 36 and i got con taking tt bus cuz it was a loop bus . yeah . and then went back to plaza sing which i tink i looked malu la . =( bus 34 also .. the journey was exactly the same when we used to b tgt . just that this time was esther instead of you-know-who .
with comparision wif the past and current , not only i've lost an another-half , i lost a confidant . it's hard to speak up ur mind towards ppl u will see everyday . but he's different . cuz we often meet up during weekends and we texted each other like everyday .
overall , i jus miss u like hell lots la .
but i noe , u'll never come by here anymore
cuz my blog , just like me , had already been thrown (chuck) aside by u alr .
i dun wan apologies .
i dun wan promises .
all i wanted is to ask u tt question i've been thinking all along .. not writing it out la !
whether u've ever truely love me anot . tt's all i wanna know .
QUITE PRODUCTIVE TODAY .
studied physics for like nearly 2.5 hours ? :P
♥ Saturday, September 23, 2006 ♥
10:37:00 PM
was supposed to do some intensive studying for physics
and it turned out tt it really was supposed only la .
barely less than half and hour we sat dwn at popeyes, i complained i was hungry la . i didnt eat breakfast wad . so we ended up eating branch . cuz everyone didnt eat la . hahhahas . so we ate at popeyes . was damn nice .. better than wad me and chinhui eat tt time .. and then the mashed potato was damn nice la . a lil spicy kind .
no one had the mood to study after eating liao .
so we went to play !
cuz chua got to go for her service ma .. then left me and 2 laopa . and we went to take 27 wif chua and then went to safra tamp ! played bowling and daytona . and i got owned . what the hell ! my car crashed like siao . and the guys go tell chua . i wan to cry already la .
but i scored the best in bowling for the second game . not telling the points la . cuz it didnt hit more than 1oo . actually is because the 2 guys suck in the second game . hee . (:
and now i'm BROKE la . cuz we spent 8.8 for the bowling thing . think next time go weekday . so much cheaper la . =)
it took me so long jus to think wad to type for u
and even a greater courage to press the word 'send'
how long more do i need to completely get u out of my mind
is being jus 'fren' so tough for u too ?
i can understand actually .
i thought i would get another disappointment once again
cuz all along my msg were either ignored or deleted .
and i nearly gave up hope .
but no, u didnt let me down .
i still got my msg in the end .
thanks !
i noe u had a wonderful wonderful birthday .
as long as u happy then everything is worth it .
yes , i'm not in a wrong to say this . =)
u said in a relationship need feelings
i didnt have feeling towards u .
i thot u had long given up already .
but no, i was wrong . very wrong .
how m i supposed to say when i see you online now .
am i supposed to act as though nothing have ever happen ?
i cant .
if i ever said yes to u
then i'm sure i'm cheating not only myself, but also con-ing u of ur feelings .
dun say u dun mind
cuz i already do .
♥ Friday, September 22, 2006 ♥
7:33:00 PM
ya la . i noe .
stop hurting my already-fading-pride alr .
i screwed up my amath paper one .
those paper who went along are : ss and history , chemistry .
and i expected myself not doing well for next tue's physics .
the verdict for some subjects :
amath - flunk . 38/8o
emath - careless mistakes . 68/8o
i jus cant do well for physics .
i needed lots and lots and lots of help .
hopefully can get ppl to help me will b the best .
=)
history sucks today la !
i slept at 8.15 i tink .
then i wake up a while only .
and exams start at 8 okay ?
only to realise i fall asleep at 8.3o AGAIN .
and emperor shahril wake me up =(
so malu can ?
even clarence and conan saw it can ?
='(
best birthday wishes to :
weisi , yangpin and siyi .
♥ Thursday, September 21, 2006 ♥
6:04:00 PM
i tink i've flunk almost every subj .
the so far still okay wan seems to b languange only .
emath paper one out .
expected higher .
mus b due to silly errors again .
=(
i tink i dun even need to try for the JC thing alr .
cuz is sure like 2o over points .
my hope for prelims is not to b over too much .
less than 23 will b good .
ytd nearly got buang by a lorry .
it's a LORRY u know ..
i jus got the feeling to cross the road
very suddenly .
and i did without really noticing abt wad was around me .
thank god the driver stop jus in time .
or else tt'll b the end of me alr .
clap if u wan to .
but there isnt a need to moan
cuz i'm not dead yet .
to think i didnt think about my frens .
neither did i think about my sisters and my parents .
it was HIM HIM and HIM i thought about at the point .
why why why ?
i shouldnt be thinking on this !
no no no .
it 's freaking impossible la .
mayb it's b cuz i noe all my frens and family can live their lives happily even without my existance . they have their own group of frens , their clicks . i bet they will stil b okay even though i die .
but doesnt this thought includes YOU too ?!
esther's words are logical actually .
i jus realised recently :
i can comfort ppl when they are down .
but when the same thing happens to me ,
i grew all tensed up and shivered up like a plant tt lacks water and nutrients .
only certain ppl words will remain stuck inside me .
for example , like chua .
but i cant understand y i'm showing attitude to her .
i dun mean it .. really .
but what's done have been done .
but i got to admit it's really sweet of him to send me to tuition
now gg tuition seemed to b something like a chore .
the feeling of loneliness .
♥ Monday, September 18, 2006 ♥
9:03:00 PM
yeah . so went to airport wif chinhui to do our supposedly studying .
and guess wad ?
we ate branch (breakfast + lunch) at swensen's
it was freaking nice can ??
hahhahahhs . and on top of tt i make my money worthwhile .
fish n chips , salad , coke , clam soup for 14.7 only leh !!
what the . it's swensen's leh !
GST is 1.8 leh
so it's only 12.9 in actual fact .
my meal!
me posting .
chicken baked rice- chinhui's
me and chinhui at bk .
and we studied amath lor .
hahahhahahs .
hard working me .
hee !
♥ Sunday, September 17, 2006 ♥
9:12:00 PM
quick recap on wad i've been doing recently .
. eat
. sleep
. study
. do household chores
. tuition
. surf a lil in the net
. school
. sms
AND TT'S ALL .
damn freaking sad la .
my cussins came to my house today .
nothing much la .
except lots of noise pollutions made, had to wash lots of dishes and serve them .
but it beats better than staying at home rite ?
ya .. so today have been rather busy .
jonathan and i have decided:
if our results are good and close tgt we'll go MJC
if not really good then we go poly ..
he was suggesting to take hospitality .
i'm not sure wad i wan to take in poly .
applied sciences ? hospitality ? business ?
lols . c my results first la .
=)
♥ Wednesday, September 13, 2006 ♥
10:32:00 PM
Class Tee !
my sis , me and my 3rd aunt on the swing .
pic a lil blur la .
SWEEEET .
it's a milk bottle tt's filled wif 2 bears , hearts and stars .
9:28:00 PM
met up wif my crazy gp of frens to eat breakfast .
and we meet real early .
i must say i really love some of them la !
woo hoo ~
they are those frens which u tink u can count on them for everything .
yeah , and we ate at mac .
cindy was late , cuz she cant wake up earlier .
it's okay cindy ! =D
and we did a very bad thing la
we saw simin and zhikuang gg to mac for breakfast
then the whole gp of us jus ran away .
so nice of us rite ?
heh . =)
to the t0pic on chem pract .
hmmmmmmmm . *tinking hard
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i tink i suck at it la .
and o lvl pract is coming up .
seriously la , i didnt noe it was sulphur and oxygen .
i jus wrote it as sulphur and iodine .
i thot it was white to yellow = iodine or was it zinc ?
what the hell !
it's actually zinc oxide ..
i did a dumb thing .
they wrote it's a sodium salt .
it didnt occur to me tt we shld write sodium-something
and dumb me jus write calcuim iodide .
how interestingly can my brain thinks ~
i tink lai gg kill himself when he sees this .
calculation sucks .
i didnt divide/times five .
i dunnoe is which la .
eveeryone told me is times and jiahao says it's divide .
AND for titration it was worst can ?
my tip of my burette was broken la !
it was damn malu can ?
everyone's burette is okay .
thanks to tt weiting we sat before me la .
then after tt my dropper spoil .
got one hole la .
cant suck up the solution .
i tink mr kenny tan must b totally disgusted at the person b4 me .
mrs tang even went to c who sat b4 me .
i tink weiting gg to b in deep shit .
and lai's reading is 24.9 can ?
when everybody's 24.4 .
i believed there's contamination wif the sol we use .
or mayb different badges of sol ?
then i have a damn-it-freak flu virus in me la .
i tink i can flood s'pore wif my virus liao .
and the amount of tissue paper i use can flood tampines ?
LOLS .
can anyone tell me
who says we cant bring mp3 players ??!
i didnt noe lor .
it appeared tt we wasnt supposed to bring .
and how are we supposed to cheat ?
cant we jus put it in our bags ?
irritating leh .
mrs tang was like so ARGH .
pretty upset at wad she say la .
and i showed her lots of attitude .
damn it .
so in conclusion , i SCREWED up this practical .
yeah , life sucks wif this kind of freak stuffs - prelims .
chinhui was so depressed la .
so being a good and kind person -heh
i pei her for the rest of the day !
and we went for a short shopping trip .
♥ Monday, September 11, 2006 ♥
10:11:00 PM
so if u ppl are desperate to use msn , u can try using this
it is jus another version of msn (=
* cheerrrs
5:41:00 PM
when doing the letter writing for english i nearly fell asleep
then when doing the newspaper article make me wan to sleep too .
BOO ! :(
throughout the whole holis i only slept between 5-7 hours a day
no wonder i turned into a panda .
luckily i wore spect . (for the first time i thank it)
or else it will b more obvious la . =(
it was settled last night .
we are gg malaysia at the end of the year .
woo hoo ~
so no meets on the first week of dec . =)
cuz 3rd aunty got house there .
their own one leh .
her sis leave there .
wad can i still say other than they are rich ?
we sat on the swing at aunty's house
then dady was telling me he wan to retire in a few years time .
awwwwwwww .
and i haven even grad for poly or jc la .
daddy says if i wanna be a teacher then i got 2 options
one is go to JC (provided my results damn solid)
or go ngee ann poly and take early childhood .
hmmmmm ..
isnt it better than being forced to take up nursing ??!
*wink wink*
do tp have early childhood ?
then i rather go tp la .
it's so near my house ..
*
my phone really got problem leh .
i texted mr tan in the morning .. like 8 plus ..
and he told me tt he jus recieved it .. and it was at 5.15 ..
what the .. ??
♥ Friday, September 08, 2006 ♥
9:24:00 PM
haiyoooo .
o's coming alr and i've been like falling sick for most of the times ?
sleep deficiency is the problem .
and now my sweaty palms are getting worse la .
damn .
for ppl who never had the experience , it's super disgusting okays .
i hate it la !
and it appears that my hands will get wet like ALL the times when i'm awake .
i'm not too sure when i'm sleeping though ..
i cant wait for o's to end actually .
then it'll b party time, meeting frens etc .
but now ... i cant get myself down to study !
omg omg omg .
and prelims will start on MONDAY alr !
and i've only started revision for chem ..
damn it .
3:52:00 PM
and it feels worse when u wanted to text someone to tell tt person abt it and u realised tt person wasnt in s'pore and was away in some overseas trip . =(
on top of tt nobody seems to b standing in ur shoes to understand wad it feels like to be in the middle . and keeps draggin u .
oh , wth have i done wrong now ?
________________________________________
i'm very sure i saw jy although it was like 11 stories away .
i'm VERY sure .
it's really coincidence .
and he nearly got knocked down by a car
while attempting to save a soccer ball .
♥ Wednesday, September 06, 2006 ♥
2:01:00 PM
11:34:00 AM
me , chua , simin, andrew , junwei went sch to asked questions to mr lai
i realised there are quite some stuffs i dunnoe here and there la .
and guess wad , MR LAI injured his leg la . =(
then we went to catch a movie later wif jonathan, khairul and benkok
and simin went home .
we went to CS's movie place then didnt really c those which suits everyone .
that's where we saw khairul .
and he jus came out of the cinema , ended the show 'love wreaked'
so to get him watch wif us another show , we cant watch love wreaked .
so , we went to TM's GV to watch 'the devil wears prada'
yeah , it was NICE NICE NICE la .
but i dun tink all the guys really enjoyed the show .
cuz the show was somewad gu-niang la .
but the humour was there .
after the movie , everybody went home !
but poor me , i still have to go for my tuition .
and i was SICK .
yes , again .
dennis told me he's reaching TM
cuz b4 tt i complain tt i was sick again
and he decided to come and find me
and he had to settle some stuffs .
so i waited for him at the bus interchange .
then he called suddenly when i'm sleeping la .
and he told me he's at the entrance of CS .
so i told him okays , i walked towards there lor .
walkin past KFC
i did one super un-glam thing la
and guess wad ?
HE SAW IT .
so i sigh and pout . -lalala
and then i saw BRYAN FANG .
the senior which i had not seen very long ago .
wif his gf .
then dennis and me took 28
hoping to c wangxu la
and we did !
then we went for tuition
and soon , it's a matter of time when i go home wif wangxu again .
then eat dinner wif my dad , mum and mei .
went home aft tt , bath and sleep .
it was only 9.3o la .
but u cant call me a pig !!!
cuz i'm SICK okays ?
lols !
oh , and before tt i did text dennis , mr lai and jonathan .
i cant believe how good i'm .
cuz i told lai to take care of his leg .
thankyou everyone for making a happy day for me !
esp my crazy frens and dennis .
♥ Monday, September 04, 2006 ♥
10:59:00 PM
哭泣虽然无法改变这残酷的事实
但是，从这里我却找到了知己和心里上的安慰
虽然我不喜欢让别人见到我软弱的一面，
但我最终知道在我最绝望和伤心时，
我还是会找到我一直想找到的。。忠心的朋友
thank you jonathan .
i cant promise tt i'll change into another person in one night .
but i'll make sure i wont bow down to any thing .
i'll learn to b cold .
i'll learn to b tough .
oh yes , and one day , i wont cry anymore .
not a tear would ever shed down anymore .
lead me to the path of happiness
lead me out of sadness
bring me to a place where happiness only existed
and everyone living a blissful life .
a place where nobody knows wad is sadness
a place where people are contented .
this sounds like some fairytale .
but it's not .
one day when i passed on , i might really get to live in those places .
who knows right ?
if i ever see God, i'll ask him .
and i'll ask him to bring me away from this place .
5:38:00 PM
had a very nice and super ex dinner .
make me feel so fat now .
2o ppl for $59o .
so average abt $3o per person .
my cussins' dad pay .
hahahs .
feeling was wierd .
imagine u came upon this family and ur dad says "tt's my 3rd bro" after sixteen years later u were born . and u have NEVER seen tt person until ur dad says tt's his bro . wad the ..? jus feel wierd . and now , my fam are meeting them more often .
1oth - wei siong (xiao pang) inviting his frens >.<
17th - going their hse . house warming .
23rd - coming MY house .
so in a way , my sunday have been burnt liao . sighs .
some pics taken last night :
my sis and me ..
look lyk christmas tree colours ?
me . miko .
actually is almost the same pic la .
*
went to popeyes to eat and to teach chinhui chemistry . tell u arh , it's super sway can ? we meet daddy andrew at popeyes ! wth !! and before we even went up to popeyes , chinhui suddenly ask me 'wad if we met andrew huh?' then after we sat down at popeyes abt 1o min later and tataz (drum rolls) ~ ANDREW came up la . see , chinhui's mouth damn zhun one can ?
tt time i was eating peanuts in class :p then she say 'later michael toh come arh' and tataz , mr toh came in the moment she ended her sentence can ? wth !!!
the food popeyes sell is nice la . but it's damn full can . i eat until i wan to vomit liao . then after eating a while later both of us dun wan to study liao . damn tirring la . and we started msg-ing dad though he 's like 2 metres away from us la .
and i saw ong chan siong (OCS) wif his gp of frens there lor .
salad !
our new bottles !
on the train ride ..
smiles and twists .
then after tt we went back to tampines and took neoprints before we went to popular . then after tt saw yanling , chinhui's fren . then after tt we went home la , taking 28 . and guess wad ? i saw cql AGAIN .
saw him on fri and now again . and the worst part is tt he lives in eunos . but i keep seeing him ard my area .. haiyooo .
some random pics which i haven upload :
simin . chua .
maple leaf choc !
my fave . *hint hint
spongebob square pants !
-drawn by andrew
me me me !
actually was my sis tt was fanisated my the invention of plane mirrors .
miko . me . kris .
miko .
and still it's me , yours truly .
xP
♥ Sunday, September 03, 2006 ♥
5:28:00 PM
i wont go back to the pathetic school building , but i will ask the teachers out .. jus like wad miss tan (i mean mdm) say .. we will meet out aft o lvl ! woo hoo ~ so now i jus wan to complete my freaking exams , get my o lvl cert and woo hoo , leave the sch . party out every night , paint chua's hse , star graze , ice skate and the list goes on .. i can c my pretty list .. ((:
64 days left to o !
*
perhaps just lyk wad des says . it's only like a month . mayb we didnt even noe each other well to start wif . but seriously , i hope the two of them doesnt see each other . cuz des seemed determined to whack him . LOLS . i dunnoe whether she will anot la . but still , hope she doesnt . =D
not feeling any bits of wierdness , i jus told des the full story .
yea . thanks to mr tan .
thanks to him , saying the truth doesnt seem to b embarassing at all .
because of him , i actually have the courage to say the truth ..
so wad if i'm *******
yea . so wad actually ?
i'm still trying to get my life perfect .
i'm still loving myself as much as ever .
i wont die jus b'cuz i dun have a bf .
cuz i noe all my true frens will always be there for me .
thanks my babes and hunks . =)
♥ Saturday, September 02, 2006 ♥
11:20:00 PM
i kept seeing things which i wasnt supposed to c .
yea , something like tt la .
somemore at the start of the month okay ?
let's c ..
i saw peach on the 1st sept (ytd) . [which he didnt c me . *phew]
and a gp of ppl which i didnt expect to c .
and i saw jy jus now wif his .. errr .. new gf ? (i tink so la)
okay la .
not really tt bad .
but most of the times when i c those ppl i do have lots of things to recall .
for eg , like the peach thing , i recall the stupid and rubbish rumor big jon said btw us .
luckily i haven even text jy and dragged him to catch a movie wif me .
*phew
i cant imagine wad will happen .
okays la , i tink i can . (i noe i sound ironic la) :P
in a way can say gan chu liang duo .
sighs .
and it's only the second day of the month .
so let's hope and pray tt everything goanna be fine till the end of the month .
*
daddy and mummy bought stuffs for me !
or rather , i asked them to buy for me .
hahhhas .
in the end , they spend $69 on me me me only .
jie and mei didnt even buy anything although they went wif me ..
and we had an expensive dinner . not sure how much , but i tink ard 5o to 6o plus .
i feel so happy whenever i see jie la .
and now , she's working the midnight shift lor . :'(
nitez everyone .
wish me luck for the rest of the month la !
and of cuz , for o's too !
then , i'll love u to bits and pieces . LOLS . =P
♥ Friday, September 01, 2006 ♥
11:22:00 AM
Illogical and self-centered ;
Forgive them anyway .
If u are kind ,
People may accuse u of selfish , ulterior motives ;
Be kind anyway .
If u are successful ,
You will win some false friends and some true enemies ;
Succeed anyway .
If u are honest and frank ,
People may cheat u ;
Be honest and frank anyway .
What u spend years building ,
Someone could destroy overnight ;
Build anyway .
If u find serenity and happiness ,
They may b jealous ;
Be happy anyway .
The good u do today,
People will often forget tomorrow ;
Do good anyway .
Give the world the best you have ,
And it may never be enough ;
Give the world the best you've got anyway .
You see , in the final analysis,
It is between you and God ;
It is never between you and them anyway .
source unknown .